What's with this year? 2015

Hello there!

Back again btw. My last post sadly was I really don't remember anymore, excuse my absence please. Let me explain my invisibility mode. Factors were:

1. Work load
2. Unavailability of a pc-like keyboard ( ayoko kasi talaga mag use ng tab or phone, so liit I'm not that comfortable enough.
3. Got an uneasy surroundings. ei so many people sa coffee shops sa cebu, like any every place I've known, I really wanna visit Andromeda for an empty space for my thinking and this.
4. I have this urong sulong if I just write something nalang muna first like drafts but can't do. In the end puro phrases lang nasusulat ko na for me it's not that "blog worthy".

That's all I can reason out for now. Basta ang alam ko lang I'm too pre occupied with so many things, 85% really matters and I just can't let it slip away without me tasting its bitter sweetness.

okay lemme break something to you readers.. I'm yaa workaholic I may say and upon being one I realized na It's both healthy and abusive. I had episodes of being sick which turned into a random sick leaves which somehow made me think of my system being checked and monitored by yours truly. Well I must, katawan ko to eh, I know wazzup and what's not, Imbalances, just like with my low hgb because of my successive night shifts and improper meal scheds. Twice nalang talaga ako maka eat, di patalaga bongga. Oh well sometimes I just can't fathom life aymore. but im still up for my cbc and chem from time to time.

every other 3 months for chem every 2 weeks or one for my hgb. Surely i got no problem naman with myself being a night duty but atleast dapat mag cooperate  ang physical resistance to harmful factors and dapat ang kain ko sakto. Sabi nga ng Lola ko everytime umuuwi ako, "wag ka talaga magpgutom doon". This palang I'm so touched na ano pakaya if may problema pa akong iba maliban dito...

i know lola will be much more concerned pati narin si Lolo. Btw, lolo is in the hospital right now and I'm not still ready to spill anything from my care mode for him. Cause I might be sad pinakalit baka maiyak ako agad dito.. while typing and yaaa story telling everything. so okay lemme start what's for 2016 year of the Monkey plans for my future. Cause imma be much more futuristic dapat kasi di na lalim magpabebe this time. I must grow and move on but forever and always I must be in touch with the sensitivity of the Human senses. Saking sarili man especially nalang sa iba pang tao.

Being sensitive to other's feelings kay isa sa mga importanteng bagay dito sa mundo. Empathy and Sympathy are must haves in life. With that I know di sya agad matutupad pero alam ko naman kasino or sino man gustong matuto,magbago POSIBLE po.

YOLO times yes that's practically what my 2016 have gone like and I promise you wala akong pinagsisisihang ginawa.. yet im so thankfuls sa mga taong mahal ako at mahal ko din po. lalong lalo na sa mga kaibigang kelanman di bumibitaw kahit ano mang magyare.

I really don't bother myself being too sensitive for people who don't deserve such. Soo i choose to picky for my friends.. diba? sakto naman ako eh, tama lang naman. ngayong mga panahon we need to, not for the reason  sinasadya natin, nagiging praktikal lang tayo and reasonable. Di lang naman kasi tayo ang may dinadamdam at nagdadala ng malalaking problema sa mundo so why not wag nanatin pahirapan mga sarilli nating makipag kaibigan sa worthy talga, at deserving na maging part ng circle of friends OR FAMILY natin diba?.

my decisions in life are both affected by so many things kelangan lang talagang ng tamang pagtimpla and weigh kasi alam mung ang sangkap sa lutuin pag kulang ang sobra ibang usapan yun e. We cook for ourselves and other people kelangan sa sarili plang alam na natin san tayo lulugar.

Victoria Doodle: Art and Scribs

Stop kidding yourself kiddo

     Sometimes  We can never fathom any everything any person every person in the world even our very self and I know you get me. 

Oftentimes mas mainam nalang na wag pansinin mga ganitong bagay. Nakakapagpabagabag lang lalo. Overthinker pnaman ako. Saklap po.

Pag nasa sitwasyon kana dun mo lang ma rerealize yung mga bagay na naramdaman ng ibang tao. "ahh ganito pala yung feeling" ngayon alam ko na. 

Meron dun ayaw mo nang mangyare ulit sayo meron din namang sana palaging ganito nalang.. Pero may mga pgkktaon na di naman kasi pwede.

We don't have our hold on it. If we do. We're lucky enough.

Positive lang tayo diba? We keep on wishing and hoping goodvibes all the way. Yet, not all the time honey.

Alam na ntin to. Nabibigla lang tayo kung dumating man mga bad vibes kala kasi natin everything is with the flow. The goodvibes flow. But naaaaaah!

Alam mo kung anong maganda? Kahit kasi dumadalas ang bad vibes hindi naman to nagtatagal because of soo many factors. Katulad ng:

May bagong bv ulit
Nakahanap ka ng pang shift
Gv comes along: tao, good news
Kumalma kanalanang kaya- di mo pasan ang kargo ng mundo

Talking to myself sometimes ,nakakagaan ng feeling it's like your soul is open for anything anyone any disaster comin' wishing you can handle it easily. 

Cause that's positivity. 
Obsolete yet important.

Our heart so precious, too fragile. Handle with care. 

Pag sinabi kong "care" you alone must have the power to break it or to deal with it's own feelings and heartaches. Hear whatsoever na gusto nitong sabihin sayo then from there ,try harder.

Making yourself extra special is important. Ikaw yan e. Dapat mahal mo sarili mo. Never let other people be the source of your 100% happiness. I'm telling you. Ikaw lang kawawa. Hell yeah. 

The world revolves around you, too. Sila man tinuturing mong mundo mo. Fetch but not for too long. Isipin mo kung ibibigay mo lahat, magpapa apekto ka sa lahat ng ginagawa nila, sinasabi nila, desisyon nila. Sa tingin mo ba sila ganun din sayo? Oo siguro dapat alam mo, nafefeel mo. Let them prove it. Hindi hanggang tenga mo lang nkakarinig ng mga sabi sabi nila. Hanggang dun lang yan sure ko.

deal with now. It's now or never. Got to decide then move on from there. :)

I just wanna be the person you'll like. Even you're clouded by your own misery thinking bout her all the time. It's a killer. Just so you know.

I'll leave you. Alone.

U N W R I T T E N

They say na okay lang daw na paminsan minsan di mo talaga magegets ang ugali ng tao. Minsan nga di mo magets sarili mo ibang tao pa kaya. Di mo rin pwede ibase ang pagkakakilala mo sa tao from sabi-sabi o chismis hanggat ikaw mismo di mo nararanasan o napagdadaanan. Kelangan kasi natin makipaghalubilo before tayo makaka conclude. Na how was it? Mabait kaya? Mapapagkatiwalaan ba sya? May respeto ba sya?

Meron kasi tayong tinatawag na First impression. At di tayo pwedeng dun lang bumase we have to really do the "mingle" thing to be able to experience everything, anything. Ang kulang saten is yung "courage" to do so. 

I can't blame other people for saying "ayoko ako ang nauuna, gusto ko ako ang unang nilalapitan". Kasi daw na trauma na sila sa experiences nila sa pagiging super 

friendly nila. Pero pano kung di sila ang mauuna? Pano na?

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Way back dati I'm so shy talaga. Pero ngayon wala na ata yun sa Vocabulary ko. Hahahahaha. Na observe ko kasi parang wala naman tayong mapupuntahan sa pagiging mahiyain natin eh. Namemenos lang yung pwede nating matutunan.

Kung mulat ka sa realidad ng buhay,kung naranasan mo nang malugmok ng paulit-ulit at di hinahayaang malunod dito, alam kong may ginawa kang "Big step" para mabago ito kasi posible naman mabago to. 

New ways. New goals. Baguhin mismo tayo. Pagdating sa attitudes, sa pakikitungo, pag perceive ng mga bagay. Pagbago sa hindi magandang kaugalian. At sa pagbibigay importansya sa Pamilya, kaibigan at sariling kalusugan. So one thing I have agreed to change it's my "pagkamahiyain". 

I get along more and more with other people to be able to get to know them kahit slowly lang, pero alam mo yun, may development. :) Di man maganda ang unang engkwentro atleast diba you can improve it next time. 

Base nga sa nabasa kong quote na kahit abo mang good-bad things na mangyare sa buhay natin, magiging malungkot lang tayo o masaya sa kung pano natin haharapin ang problema. In other words proper disposition when it comes to solving problems. 

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Less stress kung papagaanin natin ang problema mismo before natin gawan ng paraan. Pero meron talagang mga bagay na "out of our league" na talaga. What I mean is di na tayo ang makakapag bago or makakapagsaayos. Kaya mas mabuti pang ipagdasal nalang natin.

Isang halimbawa ay ang "attitude problems". Wala na tayong hawak dun. Kasi pinag uusapan natin dito ay ang tao na mismo. 

Oftentimes wala tayong magagawa dun dahil wala tayo sa lugar. Yung tipong di dapat tayo ang maging daan para ma realize nila yun. Kasi kung ako lang "sarili mo dapat kilala mo eh" di sapat na parating pabaya nalang, dapat we take time to observe ourselves din dilang lahat puro puna sa ibang tao. 

Cause if we try to think about it, it's our own life na dapat bigyan nating pansin.

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined". 

"Confidently" Big word. Mahirap gawin sometimes. Kasi naman nagiging OA tayo. Minsan we're getting overconfident we feel na antaas-taas na natin. At di na tayo pwedeng ibaba in someway. Matamaan na ang matamaan!. Alam ko kasi minsan na fefeel ko yun mismo sa sarili ko. And I hate it. Kaya bumabalik ako sa pinangalingan ko. Wayback when I was a child hanggang sa paglaki.

Mga experiences with the family taught me soo much. I can still remember everything. This year I wanted to change things, I must for the betterment. For myself and my relationship to other people. Other pokemons. Hahahaha

That's why I did my resolutions to guide me to be more humble, patient when it comes to work and attitudes towards it. 

I'm glad for my co-workers cause they're the coolest ones ever. They're all different yet unique in their own ways. We're getting Gors na but still we're one in many things.

Yung pagiging listener. Na enhance ko to in the end of last year. Hanggang ngayon I'm still on it. Doon ko kasi na realize na I won't taste the world and still life whatever it might bring pag naka idle lang ako. I really need to go out there reachin' other people and vice versa.

Life is a classic ride of improvements and dissapointments,a circus with people you love, with strangers you don't have a clue about and realizing the world is a better place for people who are fearless yet humble and kind. 

Life is full of potential. It's just a matter of how we use them from time to time. Cause no one else limits what you can do except you. Solely you. Challenge yourself! Crave for adventures! Crave for more :)

Because your future is still "Unwritten". I'm glad if up until now you and I appreciate the Life God has given me and you. <3

A Great shift

How many times I did tell to myself that I'm blessed by many things in life and that includes people and moments. A great shift I may say. For the reason that I didn't expect any of it for the moment it just all of a sudden I must ready myself because there's something beautifuly unexpected has come.

I'll be honest I do expect but I don't overreact to it. I mean it's not bad to be part of a team you want to it just we must wait for the right moment for it. You may not know when, how or when it's even possible it's just that if someone sees a skill in you that he/she thinks thats a need I think you can have a great chance of a lifetime. Once you're in it , you really must commit. Be responsible, open minded, rational , doer and respectful. Kasi di mo nman maabot kung nasan kaman ngayon kung dimo pinaghrapan. :)

I do believe in fate. Really.
I'm overwhelmed a bit.
But I'm so thankful.
All I have to do is to focus and be one with it.

Experience: My foremost Teacher

 The INTERNSHIP ADVENTURE is ON.

Up up here we go. Davao City here we come! Convoy the trip it is and by the way this is a must blog experience as I am in pursuit towards my future as a good Medical Technologist being an instrument for the wellness of the Community. FIRSTLY, I wanted to tell you one thing very important, I wanna thank God for the good health he sprung upon me and that is I'm very blessed having a very supportive Grandparents, Parents, Brothers and Sisters, Tito an Tita, Cousins and my precious       

 Friends. The next big thing that's making a mark to everybody's is our Internship Training Program. 

And to start off my Adventure here's a little Sneak peak of le time travelling. :)

Tomi plus Gummy worms snack for Time travelling.  

All it takes is time.

We just got there inside our what will be our Home for the next 2 months of journey. Apparently, I'm trying to open up my empty jar of snacks while Grace is smiling at you.

One hit combo entrance inside our New home. Krislyn (left), Gaile (right), Grace (middle) and Ilona at the back. My green room team members.

Add up picture. :)

First week to nth week "adjustment period". lol

No television Set, No internet connection what we gonna do then? Storytelling is the best way though. For the next 7 weeks "Tiis at Tiwala lang kami" less vices especially with social networking. For me though I find it as hard as swallowing a nail for the reason that I'm so very fond of media sites. I mean blogging, gaming, doodling, art appreciation is everything to me and now It's all gonna be less time with those and all I think about is that I'm gonna bet on my life here in Davao City for 2 months without them, then so be it. :)

I didn't find it that It's gonna be as "kawalan" na walang internet connection or any similar things but it is deeply much suited with focusing at the Internship Program so I'm gonna accept everything I guess.

Don't ask for lighter burdens but ask for broader shoulders

I do have a secret that I only keep within me. Sakin lang. Di nila kelangan malaman. Di na kasi importante yun kasi tapos na dina maibabalik pa. Pero nang dahil dun nakaggawa ako ng barriers and plans to look forward to. Geez ngayon ko lang na realize na kahit gaano kasakit gaano kabigat gaano kapait mga nangyari sa buhay ko sa past buhay parin ako. Positibo parin ako. I'm becoming more of me than my old misery. Yes I tend to overthink, maging praning pero lalo netong pinapa panget sitwasyon. Iniisip ko andaming pwedeng isiping mga bagay sa mundo, pwedeng makalap na bagong kaalaman, bagong librong babasahin, bagong kaibigan na makikilala magiging close , pamilyang namimiss at tatawagan ,babatiing birthday person, istalk na artista, pasayahing bata sa pmamagitan ng kendi, iinising kaibigan, magtatawanan kasama katrabho, magagalit, maiinis ng konti sa maliloit n bagay at mag mo move on agad. Walang grudges. Magpapasalamat sa bawat araw na bigay ng Dios kasi bago ito, may plano sya satin , nagugutom tayo kelangan nating kumain magapakabusog , magkipaglaro ulit sa bata, magtrabaho, mag exercise, magpakabait magpakagago ulit sa pag ibig dahil ganun naman talaga pg nagmamahal mag inuman kasi kelangan I celebrate yan. Aynako buhay bakit kelngan ko bang prating magreklamo eh kaya ngang tinawag kang magulo kasi sa isip ko palang inuunaham ko ng paguluhin ang mga descriptions mo eh. Ang simple lng nman pala intindihin.

Diko sinasabi na sa pagiging numb, masasanay ka. Sinasabi ko lang na nasasanay ka kasi nakakaintindi kana at naiintindihan mo na kung bakit ang daat nalang gawin ay tanggapin each event in your life kagit gano ka dimo maintindihan bakit nangyayari sayo na pede naman sa iba nalang. Sa dulo mo na marerealize na pasasalamatan mo pa si God na experienc e mo na mga yun ng maaga pa. Kasi dinaman kelangan basehan ang edad para masabing mas experienced sya It's all about the moments the people the important things in your life na nagbigay ng meaning aa buhay mo n bakit hanggang ngayon kinakaya mo. Kasi nga wag dapat tayo humingi ng lighter burdens humingi dapat tayo ng broader shoulders :)