Back again btw. My last post sadly was I really don't remember anymore, excuse my absence please. Let me explain my invisibility mode. Factors were:
1. Work load
2. Unavailability of a pc-like keyboard ( ayoko kasi talaga mag use ng tab or phone, so liit I'm not that comfortable enough.
3. Got an uneasy surroundings. ei so many people sa coffee shops sa cebu, like any every place I've known, I really wanna visit Andromeda for an empty space for my thinking and this.
4. I have this urong sulong if I just write something nalang muna first like drafts but can't do. In the end puro phrases lang nasusulat ko na for me it's not that "blog worthy".
That's all I can reason out for now. Basta ang alam ko lang I'm too pre occupied with so many things, 85% really matters and I just can't let it slip away without me tasting its bitter sweetness.
okay lemme break something to you readers.. I'm yaa workaholic I may say and upon being one I realized na It's both healthy and abusive. I had episodes of being sick which turned into a random sick leaves which somehow made me think of my system being checked and monitored by yours truly. Well I must, katawan ko to eh, I know wazzup and what's not, Imbalances, just like with my low hgb because of my successive night shifts and improper meal scheds. Twice nalang talaga ako maka eat, di patalaga bongga. Oh well sometimes I just can't fathom life aymore. but im still up for my cbc and chem from time to time.
every other 3 months for chem every 2 weeks or one for my hgb. Surely i got no problem naman with myself being a night duty but atleast dapat mag cooperate ang physical resistance to harmful factors and dapat ang kain ko sakto. Sabi nga ng Lola ko everytime umuuwi ako, "wag ka talaga magpgutom doon". This palang I'm so touched na ano pakaya if may problema pa akong iba maliban dito...
i know lola will be much more concerned pati narin si Lolo. Btw, lolo is in the hospital right now and I'm not still ready to spill anything from my care mode for him. Cause I might be sad pinakalit baka maiyak ako agad dito.. while typing and yaaa story telling everything. so okay lemme start what's for 2016 year of the Monkey plans for my future. Cause imma be much more futuristic dapat kasi di na lalim magpabebe this time. I must grow and move on but forever and always I must be in touch with the sensitivity of the Human senses. Saking sarili man especially nalang sa iba pang tao.
Being sensitive to other's feelings kay isa sa mga importanteng bagay dito sa mundo. Empathy and Sympathy are must haves in life. With that I know di sya agad matutupad pero alam ko naman kasino or sino man gustong matuto,magbago POSIBLE po.
YOLO times yes that's practically what my 2016 have gone like and I promise you wala akong pinagsisisihang ginawa.. yet im so thankfuls sa mga taong mahal ako at mahal ko din po. lalong lalo na sa mga kaibigang kelanman di bumibitaw kahit ano mang magyare.
I really don't bother myself being too sensitive for people who don't deserve such. Soo i choose to picky for my friends.. diba? sakto naman ako eh, tama lang naman. ngayong mga panahon we need to, not for the reason sinasadya natin, nagiging praktikal lang tayo and reasonable. Di lang naman kasi tayo ang may dinadamdam at nagdadala ng malalaking problema sa mundo so why not wag nanatin pahirapan mga sarilli nating makipag kaibigan sa worthy talga, at deserving na maging part ng circle of friends OR FAMILY natin diba?.
my decisions in life are both affected by so many things kelangan lang talagang ng tamang pagtimpla and weigh kasi alam mung ang sangkap sa lutuin pag kulang ang sobra ibang usapan yun e. We cook for ourselves and other people kelangan sa sarili plang alam na natin san tayo lulugar.